Major 4

A film by Joule Seventeen, katie Davis and Ariella mastroianni

starring ariella mastroianni


Major 4

I am far away from home.
I watch the world turn from somewhere high above.
I am an astronaut that got cut.
It’s time to relearn what matters to me.
I don’t know if life is going to start again.
I don’t know when life is going to end.

Is someone supposed to save me?
(God, I hope not.)
How boring to rely on someone other than yourself.
But how am I supposed to tolerate this mess?
Inhale, exhale.
I don’t know what is right or wrong.
I can’t believe I let it get this far.

I am excited for the opportunity to live again.
I don’t think I need to be rescued.
It is a privilege to feel alone.
I feel like a child.
And I’m learning who I can be in this body as I float away.
We are experiencing everything that will ever happen to us
All together, all at the same time.

I am building a castle in this moment.
Once in a lifetime, one in a million.
This is special to me, make it last forever,
and just for right now.
Maybe we are meant for nothing
Riding bicycles downhill to nowhere.
I will share my questions with you
And I pray we never find the answers.
I feel everything, all the time, every day.